[10] Culture distracts us, but not enough
Days later, she’ll remember to her grandfather she screamed when she collapsed. I’ll correct her as soon as she says it: she didn’t scream, no, I…
[11] What beings will succeed mankind?
I’m thinking what I’ll tell the prosecutor: I wasn’t trying to murder him, I just wanted us both to stop feeling sorry for ourselves.…
[12] Then made one bundle of himself and me
I get out a pair of nail scissors and my sewing kit – both in the top kitchen drawer, a small mercy – and measure out a length of black silk thread,…
[13] In time but will not
The problem with stories. The problem is you can’t keep them in your head entirely. You read them and read them, and you reach the end and you’ve half-forgotten…
[14] Schemers and dancers
I have to go farther each time to find a coffeehouse I don’t know. This morning I’ve crossed the river beyond the Great Wheel. There’s a basement…
[15] The shadow boys are breaking all the laws
I don’t break things down right away, the details can always come later. I don’t look at faces until I’ve sensed something else. That man’s coat…
[16] That silence companions them both
In the afternoon I look for a way to fit an armchair into the studio. In the end, I dismantle it into three, carry the pieces up the stairs, and screw…
[17] Social idealism, and its affects
Six weeks is a long time away. I’ve used up six lives in one week. In the afternoon crowds, nothing looks normal to me yet, and it’s good to see everything…
[18] How do we know we love?
Paul went yesterday afternoon to ask Rosemeyr who the guy was, whose name I don’t know. There was no point telling him not to. He had a reason to walk…
[19] False dreams cling without number
When Paul is near, I always know who I am and what I’m doing and what’s happening around me. Before he was in my life and when he’s not in it now,…