[69] If the death wish ever dies

After we moved into grandfather’s stable loft, for twelve days I couldn’t bear for her to be out of my sight. Then on day thirteen, I woke up beside her thinking, ‘There – that’s the longest I ever stayed with any woman.’ The first summer weeks didn’t count, you know? Those weeks were just the two of us and nothing else. But suddenly this was me and someone else together in the world. I wasn’t used to that kind of threesomes, I couldn’t imagine how they worked.